Saturday, December 16, 2006

ANTICIPATION

For this weeks Sunday Scribblings..........

I'm sitting on the back patio of my Aunts home in Houston Texas.

I'm alone, scared and pregnant. I am determined to have my baby despite the fact Mike does not want to get married. I have moved 1,200 miles away from home. It is early March. Instead of the frost lingering on the near dead ground and the purple crocus teasing us with the hope of spring, it is pleasantly warm and the air is perfumed with gardenia.

The future is as uncertain as the sex of the child I am carrying.

I'm confused, overwhelmed with doubt, sad and slightly bewildered with the surroundings and the path I have chosen.

Being with child has not seemed possible. I am three months pregnant and not showing. There has been no morning sickness. It is as if it is a big mistake.

My hands are folded over my stomach.

I feel her.

At the time I did not know it was a her.

Something was fluttering inside me.

There it was again!

I was astonished. All the self-doubt and confusion lifted.

Five months of anticipation began.

13 comments:

Anonymous said...

oooh.. goosebumps... lovely

Michelle said...

I can't think of an event filled with more anticipation than the birth of a child. Great take on the prompt!

Inconsequential said...

brave, and cool.

Anonymous said...

Thank you for sharing your story... brave, yes, and full of hope.

mary said...

All of the above and then some.

Becky said...

I envy you that moment. It's something I always wanted to feel, but never will.

(On another topic...your open entry to Blogger. I have the same problem! Were you forced to convert? I can't comment on anyone in the new format.)

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Karen said...

Lovely post. Here via AC at Sonnets of a Hermit.

Anonymous said...

WoW, you wrote this well! I can't think of a better take on Anticipation.

Monica
http://journals.aol.com/sonensmilinmon/Pollyannascorner/

Anonymous said...

Amazing. I've never experienced that myself - but I can almost imagine what that was like.

Tongue in Cheek Antiques said...

Yes, the wings of the miracle stir inside and everything opens up!!

Anonymous said...

That must be one of the greatest arrivals to anticipate. Know what I mean? Very nice post here.

R2K said...

: )