Sunday, March 25, 2007


.....Just to pass the time
there's something wrong here
there can be no denying......

The Internet is a small place. At times, I have to be very careful about what I say and how I say it. Veil it. Disguise it. Ignore some of the drama going on in my life because I have no idea who knows who I am where I live. So I'm careful to not mention who I work for nor the trauma's I encounter because of my business.

Yet, it's really getting to me. We have endured price increases before, but this one was a humdinger and since I represent my company to my customers, they think it is all my fault and that I should be able to do something about it.

And when I do try help out a small Mom and Pop, I get smacked down by my own company for being too emotional and too passionate.

I have been unsettled. Since when was being passionate a bad thing?

Which is making me become unglued. I'm questioning everything about myself and the profession I chose for myself. If I could turn back the hands of time, things would definitely be different.

In my perfect profession, I see myself as an Archaeologist.

I have a few good years left, maybe I should look into it. I made a vow to myself when I finished my degree that I would not set foot back in a class room. But, that was a long time ago, and like Childbirth (only getting my degree at night school must be worse!), you forget the pain in time.

Just thinking about it is easing the depression I am being sucked into.


Robbie said...

I think I know who Big Daddy is but I forget. I'm sorry it's such a struggle. Corporate America has forgotten the little guy. I'm glad there are still people like you that care.

Cynthia said...

I think that eventually the decent people who work in sales end up feeling like crap about what they do. The business world ain't what it used to be. I'm hustling myself to come up with ways to get back in classes again as well.

meno said...

Start with a class or two. You'll knwo if it's right after that.

I went back to scholl in a completely different field in my mid 30s. If you can, Go for it.

Lisa :-] said...

If you can afford to go to school, and have the desire, go for it. It couldn't hurt, and it might give you the satisfaction you are missing from your work life. You're never too old to try something new (unless you think you are...)

gigi said...

The most interesting people I know are the ones who took a chance and changed their lives. Take a class; see how it feels. What's the worst thing that could happen? You learn something, meet new people; it may lead you somewhere completely unexpected. A whole new path...adventure! :)

ab said...

If you can, maybe follow your heart. An honest person's pillow is his peace of mind.

You'll find your way :)